Births are happening in my extended family. My nieces and nephews are now having children. And I can hardly wait for my daughter, Shauna and her husband, Christopher to start having children....when they are ready. :-) I have been a little nostalgic lately with 2 of my children having birthdays in the last 2 months. It is fun to celebrate their birthdays with them. And for me, personally, I also recall their birth days. Funny how I can still recall the emotions of giving birth 25 years ago. It is amazing to me, with all 3 of my children, that I felt a glorious new wonder at the birth of each one.
It was always this hallowed moment, this moment when that precious life was placed directly in my hands. I still remember the awe, the breathlessness with each one. The realization that I, in my very humble state, had somehow partnered with the Divine in this magnificent creation. Holding that little one "so fresh from God" with His kiss still upon their cheek, I felt closer than ever to Him. That He would choose me. That He would love me enough to give me this prize of His. It was funny, or weird, or strange to me that with each of those little people, I knew in an instant that my love was so great for them that I would die for them without hesitation.
Over the course of the next weeks following the birth of my first little jewel, hints of the immense love of God begin to trickle into my conscious mind. I would die for her...He died for me. Not even yet to "terribly twos" or "terrifying teens," looking upon her sweet little face I knew I would forgive whatever grievances she brought me.....ahhhh, that is why He forgives me over and over and over again. This little package, this little darling would never be able to do anything to ever stop this avalanche of love that filled my heart....."nothing can separate me from the love of God." And so began my journey to really understanding the unconditional love of God (25 years later, I am still learning.) Before baby....nice words on the page, after baby....revelations over and over again of the great reality of His love for me. For you. For us.
I have to wonder if that is why He created us to have children...to carry them within us...to birth them. To give us another, glorious way of understanding His love for us and His delight over us. I believe that has been true for me, and I am thankful for the gift of these 3 precious souls that have taught me so much about my Father's love for me.
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